I’m Lame Like That

Haven’t written here in a while. I figured I would now cause it’s the only place I can write and not have to worry about people I know reading it and being all lame. The only person I know who might read this is Bobby, and even then he might not. But I trust him so it’s ok if he does.

Soooooooo I got a letter from Bobby today. It made me feel a lot better. I know this sounds retarded, but I’ve just been feeling alone, kinda ignored by everybody, including him, for a few weeks now. I didn’t want to tell him that though, because I KNOW it’s not his fault and I KNOW he has work and he is completely exhausted a lot of the time. I don’t want him to have to worry about how I’m feeling on top of having to deal with all of that. So I keep how I’m feeling secret mostly. But I had to talk about it somehow, so I’m kinda just whining here. Ignore my whining please. I’ll be done soon. 

Thing is, I know I’m gonna be in trouble further down the road if I don’t learn how to control my emotions. It’s just really hard for me to do that. And I need to, or I’m just gonna irritate and hurt people I care about. 😛

*sigh* I’m lame. 😛

I’m gonna go put things in an envelope.

D’oh! >.<

So yeah. I got into a conversation with a person who believes in relativism.

This pretty much means that they think that, as a Christian, sin is subjective, and is only sin depending on how you look at it. They basically also think you can ride God’s grace as a “get out of Hell free” card.

First of all, if you really LOVE God, then WHY would you want to just use Him like that so you can do whatever the heck you want? Isn’t that really selfish and hurtful? I mean, when you’re in a relationship, and someone tells you that they love you but is really a gold digger and is only there for what they can get out of you, don’t you feel soooo hurt and used after that? Don’t you think God would feel the same way? I mean, He is the one who MADE our emotions in the first place….

Also, God is not only graceful, He is JUST. 

Oh, and also, deliberately disobeying God on purpose, and then expecting Him to be close to you and stuff is not good. I mean, yeah, everybody is gonna sin, Christians too, it’s inevitable. The thing is, if you love God, you will try to change for Him. Not just keep sinning and not caring because hey, God’s graceful. No. That’s not love. That’s selfishness.

The end.