Work Ethic and Irritation

Over this past week, I discovered that there are two things in life that upset me almost instantly, and both have to do with work.

The first is when I am working, and someone comes and tries to take over the job that I am doing for NO REASON, just so that THEY can do it FOR me. It’s soooo annoying. My coworker Alex did this to me yesterday, I nearly bit his head off..but I held it in. I don’t know why I hate that so much, but I just do. I mean, its not like he’s doing it to be nice, because that’d be a different story. I wouldn’t be mad about it then. But when someone forcibly takes over what I’m doing just so that they can act like they’re better at MY job than I am, it really ticks me off.

The second thing is when I work, but someone else has worked more than I have, and then they act like the work I have done, and my exhaustion following said work, is completely invalid. Its so demeaning. EVERYONE does this to me. My coworkers, my friends, my family, even my boyfriend (although he doesn’t do it nearly as bad as everyone else does). Example: I came home today after a 9 hour shift, the whole thing spent running back and forth doing errands for customers and on my feet. I was exhausted. As I walked in the door, first thing my brother says is “You have to make dinner.” I’m like “…..Dude. I’m exhausted. You’ve just been at the house all day. Can’t you?” and he’s like “I worked way more than you when I was at camp. I don’t care. You get to make dinner.” ….RGH. Its not the making of dinner that annoyed me, it was the fact that he used work that he did back in the summer against me, like I’m lazy and don’t do any REAL work like HE did. Its so irritating. Sometimes I wonder why I even try. Nobody really cares that I work as hard as I do, so why do I do it? I’m not even talking about my job, I’m talking about all the work I do at the house too. I don’t have to do as much as I do, but if I DON’T, then I’m considered irresponsible. If I DO, then nobody cares anyway. 

Sigh. 😛 whatever. Everybody will read this and think I’m just complaining anyway. 




So according to my mom, I am the most incredibly selfish person ever. I only care about myself and what I need, and everything is always about me. I am a bad person.

……yay….. *cries*

So I Have A Lot Weighing On My Mind….

I can’t sleep, so I just thought I’d write a bit instead.

So, this weekend I’m going out to see everybody at Camp. I’m really excited about it. Its gonna be bittersweet, because most of the people I want to see, I won’t see again for a very long time after this. I hope it lasts. Lol. Also, Bobby is going to be there. It’ll be great to spend some time with him, even if it is only for a day. 

But we talked about something tonight that has been bugging me quite a bit. Let me give a little backstory here.

There’s this guy, Ethan, and this girl, Isabella, and they were dating for over 8 months. Then she up and left him for this other guy (The Fierceness). Ethan was heartbroken, and apparently confided in Bobby about this. It turns out that Bobby went through the same sort of thing with a different girl last year (previously mentioned in other blogs here).

So now, there may be a confrontation going on this weekend between “The Fierceness” and Bobby. That’s fine, I mean, somebody has to talk to this guy. He made a douche move. Thing is, there is the possibility a physical fight stemming from this confrontation. I don’t know why, but the idea of that kinda freaks me out. I mean, I’ve always known that Bobby enjoys a good fight every now and again, and that’s alright. But now that it comes to it, I don’t know how I feel about it. It scares me a little. I think that fear of aggression stems from the physical abuse I witnessed and suffered from my dad. I know it’s not the same thing at all, and that Bobby would never hurt me, but still…..

I know I worry way too much. 😛

Anyway, I guess that’s all I was gonna say. You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.